個人檔案GAO Yuan相片部落格清單更多  |  工具 說明 |
GAO Yuandedicated to this culture of ours, Geistswissenschaften and the beloved |
||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
|
|
12月12日 todaytoday is the day on which day mama goes home after her visitation. l happily accompanied her toured some places of interest in the mainland and island, including botanic garden, sentosa etc. how time flies, a fortnight passes within a blink! l love mama, so do you. 11月20日 今天今天是来新加坡第10年整。甫抵叻，余曾作诗一首，有云初下南洋虽喜不狂者，颇为吾友沪上陈君慧中首肯。今十年即期，君不知青云何处，余训蒙石叻，沈君谙版勃极烈负笈纽约，不知何日相见也。 我常常说，用花来比附我们不朽的青春，乃是不那么真切的。花者，春天它开了，秋天谢，所谓春华秋实也。苗而不秀者，曰子，有矣夫；秀而不实者，有矣夫。但我们那不朽的青春，是早已镌刻在人类乃至宇宙的最深处，那是不朽不凋谢永远鲜红的。铭曰：子子孙孙永保用，此之谓也。 甲说我再也不跟你说话。乙想那就不说。乙看到甲，挥挥手招呼，甲也是，像那个小企鹅，乙想跟甲说话，但是又想到，朋友数，斯疏矣。毋自取其侮，盖乙之对甲，乃是乙认为的近乎所能，然就甲观之，尚不足备一格也。甚矣乙之无谓也。夫一人者，非一人之一人也，天地间之一人也。以天地间之一人，而曲逢一人者，非天生蒸民之义也。彼之不吾取者，彼自有端，非乙彼之过，非彼乙之可以理喻者也。休矣乙，乙其休欤。 10月30日 今天嗟嗟夫，呀呀嘟，真是不可斗量车载，实乃难以管窥蠡测，没想到呀没想到，如此这般这般如此，那时侯是多么让人也就是我啦百思不得其解，如同二元一次方程一般，展转过了1年多快不到2年，就这样的情况，始料不及，自郐以下心不在焉哉乎也。那真是
10月23日 在那路上在那去那里的路上，还在那路上。那路乃是曲折，乃是通向远的终点，终点乃是于看不见的那处。我说，那人迈了大步子，已经走了很远，我说旅隼同学，你还好吗？很长时间没有联系了，4个多月不知道你安顿下来没有，很好的？祝你一切都安好，还在那少有人行的路上，你会发现摩肩接踵的同志者，庶乎绳绳兮！ 8月24日 TODAY我说过么，言悖而出亦悖而入。他们分手乃是必然的。.. 我觉得这样是好的，也不错.刚才伊说我也爱你，真开心呵 ！看一篇帖子在别人捕捞个，这个帖子的部分内容说明蠢货是无处不在的。..Oct 10 4:55 am, i am deprived of slumbers555....... ellipsis mark speaks my sentiment..................................... 阿来了，就是这个日子！ 寂寞的时候就是没有事情让自己安心干什么的时候我就来写它12句罢。当写了的时候就想到呵寂寞了而还有很多事情等待我去完成，因此就写这12句，想到那更比这写这12句要紧的事情的时候，我想呵哈哈需要抓紧时间了呵。 快了，伊的生日，就在不远的将来，伊的生日来了。真好，伊的生日，想到这个日子和星座就让人心里乐滋滋的。伊这番生日，有一个小小的礼物来送给伊。我想，伊这样的小女生，是会喜欢的吧。 真好，讓你的電話叫醒，像秋天的知了，它說：輊！起床！我才聽到你說：囗！嗲嗲嗲嗲。。。 不知道是谁家孩子大半夜打我电话，响了几下就停了，还显示无号码。今天听到你的声音，传来到世界的另一边，遥远又真切，糯糯的，又好像QQ糖一样的质感。秋天树叶落下，滴溜溜的转圈，树下红砖地上走着的，可是这个声音吗。 那是天使的歌唱。
不知不觉之中，已經積攢了6幅了。除卻一幅在西安的家中，此外的五幅還都在我的電腦里。它是好的。是那樣的好，讓人懷念和嚮往的，我說麼，詩曰輾轉，此之謂也。 JUST NOW TODAY ORDERED SOMETHING FOR THE COMING EVENT IN THE TEHTH MONTH OF THE YEAR. BUT TODAY'S CONCERN IS THE EXACT TIMING OF IT. NOT BECAUSE TODAY DON'T HAVE A CLEAR IDEA ON IT, BUT TODAY REMEMBERED THE SCHEDULED TRAVELING ON THE MONTH THAT MADE TODAY'S AMBIGUITY IN TIMING. BUT TODAY HAS A GOOD IDEA IN REACHING A DECISION THAT COMMONSENSICALLY MONDAY IS NOT A DAY FOR TRAVELING. SO TODAY MADE IT. THE UNFORESEEABLE FUTURE PREDICATES OUR UNPREFIGUREABLE DESTINY. BUT ONE THINK FOR SURE IS I STILL BY NOW AM PREPOSSESSED BY YOU WHO IS ALWAYS MY FIRST PRIORITY IN THIS WORLDLY LIFE OUT OF MY OWN CLAN.& all are about stretching eggs. 7月6日 todaytoday rains.
can you remember when rain dropped last time?
or the thunder slashed the vaunt?
我刚才去KR转了一圈，坐了一会儿。书上说：“饭后百步走，活到九十九。”我因被YIH之粥喂得饱食终日，与其在study room里面无所用心，不如实践多日的计划，去KR转一圈，坐一会，即可享延年益寿之功，又可抒解怀旧之情。一举两得，其功大也。于是就去了。 从YIH之study room，到OSA，还是二十七步，尚不计台阶十八级。从OSA到楼下，台阶四十四。楼下只有邮局还在，印度人的mama shop早在若干年之前就搬没了。此时天色尚早，因此天空中还有光亮透出来。下午的暑热尚在，若温吞之水，四周弥漫。路边之草木，绿意犹然；树上之花，残红仍存。路上苔痕印履痕，一直延伸到人迹罕至的不知何止之处。余走着，想到Alfred Houseman之When I came last to Ludlow，曰： When I came last to Ludlow, Amidst the moonlight pale, Two friends kept step beside me, Two honest lads and hale. Now Dick lies long in the churchyard, And Ned lies long in jail, And I come home to Ludlow Amidst the moonlight pale. 这诗是没意味可寻的，但总让我想起： 木末芙蓉花， 山中发红萼。 涧户寂无人， 纷纷开且落。 每当回忆和独坐，就不自主的想起这些这样的句子。此盖因触无景之景，而生寡情之情耶？ 眼前就是KR，眼后，眼左与右，都是了。这地方是极熟而不需辨别的。穿过草地的小路，随着水泥板之高下而动摇。地上铺的红砖被黑色抹成黯淡的，好像墙上风干的蚊子血的色彩。高高低低的五座砖楼，却冷冷清清的，即不见人走进去，也不见人走出来；偶尔也确有人走进去，偶尔也有人走出来。B座楼下，有一个人在跳绳，一跳一跳的。B座五楼， 有一只黑鸟飞出来。B座楼下，原有一个很小的池塘，不分昼夜的有流水，亦有鱼，不分昼夜地在池塘里转身。现在B座楼下的池塘，基址还在，只是已经被土填埋了矣。埋的土高过塘沿，生满青草（大谢诗曰“池塘生春草”，我有幸见了！），倒像是多年不曾添修的坟头。B座入口处，极高而阔大的水泥台阶，曾经漆着一个神采奕奕的"B"字套在圆圈里。这个标志还在，然非不知古者可知也。盖只留下了斑驳的痕迹，像敦煌石窟中的壁画一般了矣。台阶尽头的空地脏得如同旧日火车站的南广场。唯西厢花圃乱草之中，杂衬了很多白色的花，仿佛瘦小的五星的形象，在乱草之中开放进而枯萎。在这个位置东首，则后面及左右都是B座的门窗，都关闭着。若不是一二窗口透露出灯光，看到风扇在转动，简直像废弃了。而且诚然是被废弃过的，逃过一劫罢了。幸免如Shears的命运，KR和EA，这两个宝贝。 C座的鱼塘也填埋了。塘边的树还在，还是那么高，耷拉着几颗黄叶子，另几片有绿色的向天上伸展着撑开，此真乃生机之体现也。C座一楼的厨房里，灯火通明，灶台冰冷，四壁光洁，地面如镜。风扇静静地载旋载转，微波炉门虚掩着。一只崭新的锅，反射着白光，一只同样崭新的锅，反射着白光。余在白光之中，看到一个青年，头发剃得光光的，正在用开水泡一枚鸡蛋。这时又一位青年，头发光亮而竖起，脸孔白净，从外面走进来，曰：“高君，去排练吧。”光头青年曰：“明天CA，今天我想看看书。”竖发青年曰：“哦…”光头青年曰：“但是，付君，我想，我们的晚会之表演，那是一年一次，而我们能够参加的演出，应该是只有在今年。但CA，一学期多则四次，少则三番。待我吃罢就去。”竖发青年曰：“若去，不如现在。canteen想必还有东西，我们同去，吃完就排练。顺便去叫上张君、杨君诸人。”光头青年曰：“好。那么同去吧。”就走出去，不见了。我想，青年们有志于文艺活动，是很好的。正想与他们交流，竟不知所在，惜哉。那开水泡着的鸡蛋还在，开水已经具有了鸡汤的氤氲香气。一位狐狸幻化的妖精，“大尾曳做长红裳”，断然走进来，把鸡汤端起，道：“今天真运气，老狼请吃鸡…”就很开心，把鸡汤吃掉了矣。 我离开那里，坐在E座树下。那里曾有一个秋千，如A座的一样，也都不在了。抬头看到一户门口挂着“正气轩”三个字。这一座里面，进进出出的人很多，因有洗衣房之故也。通向communal hall的天桥，被截而断之，因为以前的communal hall和餐厅的所在，现在改建为Alumni house之故也。KR，现在是Ridge View Residence之一部分，是全校唯一没有餐厅和自习室的宿舍了。或许YIH是它这些功能的延伸吧。但YIH之伙食，似不如他处为佳，虽远胜PGP，但仍无印度饭这样的知名菜系。可喜者唯素食摊的粥，只是黑米的，我担心吃久了会变黑。虽然据新闻界人士认为，我“黑得看不见”，但余不想更进一步。余发短信给妈妈，问曰：“妈，我天天吃黑米粥，会不会越吃越黑呀？”究竟是知子莫如母，母爱总给人以最大的安慰：“吾儿何所惧哉？你在家吃了一十八年大米白面，白过吗？”余释然，带着轻松的心情，回到YIH的study room，就在踩踏现场的废墟旁，写下了上面的文字。 6月26日 今天今天，是這樣的一天，不僅讓我想起前天，還能讓人展望後天。
就是這樣的一天，我並沒有，之前絕對不可能，知道這樣的一天會發生甚麼事情！ 但是這樣的一天終於來到了，無論他在多遠之處潛伏，他不動，一動不動，動也不動，寂然不動，還是來了。 不是他來了，乃是你走進他。 不是，或者另一種想法，你走進他，乃是你被時間推著前行，來到他的面前，穿過他，甩後他。 這樣的一天，誰知道會發生甚麼事情！ 太陽是很乖巧地貓在雲彩之後，給每一朵烏雲都鑲嵌上金色銀色的邊，晚上將它們染成紅色，之後它們變成藍色黑色，終於消失在天際，融匯成為一色，天下烏雲一般黑，不黑不算好烏雲！它們帶來下雨，讓你們涼快一下，或者被淋濕了，頭髮溼了，肩膀溼了，身體像水那麼溼……終於雨停了，青蛙快樂地唱歌，它們唱：刮括瓜掛寡蝸呱聒~~多好聽，荷葉無法承受一個青蛙合唱團的表演，沈淪於水中，青蛙青蛙們它們嗆了水！！！可課客克剋科刻渴柯……它們咳嗽了！！！ 5月28日 todayToday is the 28th birthday of Gao Yuan. Two minutes after 12 am I received a touching message from her, whose Ausserungen were occasionally remembered in this blog, saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY. It is perforce a happy birthday, because of her message, I suddenly recollected the teaching of Contentment Minor.5月27日 today我学生的一片作文，这样的好文章不能被不流传。
文曰：用“雨树、云朵、花朵、鸭子”造一个作文。
“雨树、云彩、花朵和鸭子是好朋友。他们在讨论谁最被人类喜欢。
云彩说：我能遮挡阳光，还能带来雨水，给花朵浇水，人类很喜欢我。
雨树说：你下雨的时候我给人们挡雨，还能给人们荫凉，人们很喜欢我。
花朵说：我香喷喷的，人们都喜欢闻我。
鸭子说：我……我是煮来给人们吃的……” 4月10日 Bon voyage, peregrine.Some days ago I learnt peregrine is on her way to the university. This friend inspired me in the past years is inspiring me with this exciting news. I wish her a peaceful journey and joyful life. ^^ 3月3日 today, 2 poemsOf academic study we cherish coldhearted dissection, even in humanity anything was ready for cool investigation. -- Gao Yuan TOday I had an audience of a poem recital on a website 'Slate'. The poem is "Slightly Tearful" (http://www.slate.com/id/2211877/). The last stanza impressed me the most, as it spells from what I dissent. And something more than that sympathy I received is reference of another poem, "Exequy" (http://www.bartleby.com/105/142.html), which leaves me more space to sorrow. 2月15日 todayIt's like a self-portrayal with self-contempt does today's discovery exalted itself into my attention. For limited exposure to this genre leaves me such an impression that philosophers seems seldom write such satire, with only one exception of Mr. Mou's autobibliography. Today's reading of "On perpetual peace" is such a joyous saunter in his kingdom accompanied by a wise man and his metaphors and allusions. In another volume of his collective political writings, the introducer once mentioned the well-accepted belief that his writing is like "brown wrapping paper" etc. I'd like to give it my enthusiastic rebuke: "He wrote indeed most of the time plainly with little embellishment, for he did not need flaunt his clever pen to burden reader's mind, but one should read one more folio from his brown wrapping paper, lest the one haste to such a terribly unchecked conclusion." I recommend this essay! 刚才看到留言，我就非常激动，好像书上说得“终于有人给我写信了”一样～ 2月13日 today, a negotiable deadlinetoday, just now, I was informed by email that the deadline of edu-psy whatever was extended by some days. I appreciate the institute's benevolence and consideration and can't disguise my glee at this information. Because I suddenly discovered countless institutional arrears, i.e. unfinished or even incommenced homework due in the following week. on EPMS, a discussion with Mr. Wang deepened my understanding on this topic, Mr. Xie's generous sharing of his invaluable materials rendered my story completeness, Mr. Chou's well-organized presentation slides helped me to grasp the gist of EPMS by clarifying this labyrinth of evaluating procedures. My term paper would not be finished without supports from these friends and colleagues... -- am I writing the acknowledge for the forthcoming volume... and lo, it's time to initiate the instauration of my jejune essay.. 2月7日 EPMSRecently I am working on edu psy whatever term paper on EPMS on which is the topic the tutor encouraged us to make an investigation to some extent within or beyond our capacity. After a preliminary internet based literary research, a ramified scenario of the EPMS loomed large. Here I jot down my findings. 1. EPMS is the enhanced version of Performance Management system which is used in other sectors to manage the performance of a particular organization or its sub-organization to achieve desired results, e.g. products manufactured or services delivered; (here we may like to step back and consider the product of Education sector, esp. desired result of primary school education) 2. EPMS in our context measures the various aspects of teacher's performance, which does not logically necessarily beget the desired result, rather than the result desired; (this is my provisional conclusion) 3. Given that what EPMS assesses is indeed the desired result of education, here what I mean is, in the cliche, the holistic development of a child (I wholeheartedly admit the impossibility of conducting such a measurement within a relatively short tenure of an education officer's evaluator vis-a-vis the unforeseeable possibilities and inexhaustible factors either positive or not are to develop in and affect a student's life), this very part is highly diluted by the emphasis allotted into other aspects of a teacher's expectation in the real world. 1月25日 today new yearToday is the last day of Wu-zi year, and a few minutes later Ji-chou year will come. at this moment, l certainly want to say something to conclude this year. 1月18日 todaytoday went to central library and saw a handful of people sitting in the chairs burying their head in volumes, inhaling and exhaling conditioned cool air. today thought, what a wonderful day! what a wondrous cloister! you librate your soul from Draconian hands of daily trifles, pilgrimed along the stair-steps and shelfs, you communicate with noble and humble spirits, ingenue and ingenuous brains, whom are your beloved, whom did you honour.
today shines. 12月27日 今天今天他在候车室看到这样的一幕。 |
An anthology of materialist of huasing, 2000 - 2007, supplemented with selected entries of this blog.
|
||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
傳送私人訊息
訂閱 RSS 摘要
告訴朋友
新增至 Live.com
新增至您的朋友網路
註冊通知|
|
